so give me hope in the darkness.

You saw my pain, washed out in the rain
Broken glass, saw the blood run from my veins
But you saw no fault no crack in my heart
And you kneel beside my hope torn apart
But the ghosts that we knew will flicker from view
And we'll live a long life
So give me hope in the darkness that I will see the lightCause oh that gave me such a fright
But I will hold as long as you like 
Just promise me we'll be alright

So lead me back
Turn south from that place
And close my eyes from my recent disgrace
Cause you know my call
We'll share my all
Now children come and they will hear me roar
So give me hope in the darkness that i will see the light
Cause oh that gave me such a fright
But I will hold on as long as you like 
Just promise me that we'll be alright

But hold me still bury my heart on the cold 
And hold me still bury my heart on the cold

So give me hope in the darkness that I will see the lightCause oh that gave me such a fright
But I will hold on as long as you like 
Just promise me that we'll be alright

But the ghosts that we knew will flicker from view
And we'll live a long life

sista sista

Literally how much of a genius is my sister? Teaching me new things all the time even though she's younger...

IF YOU TOOK EVERYONE OUT OF THE EQUATION,

Would you be truly happy and content with your life and yourself?

•If yes, keep doing what your doing.
•If no, find what makes YOU genuinely happy in life. And do it for yourself, no one else.

Feel the joy of being alive

the ever-living ghost of what once was. 

"The key is to listen to your heart and let it carry you in the direction of your dreams. I've learned that it's possible to set your sights high and achieve your dreams and do it with integrity, character, and love. And each day that you're moving toward your dreams without compromising who you are, you're winning."

- Michael Dell

 

just breathe.

"You cannot control what happens to you, but you can control your attitude toward what happens to you, and in that, you will be mastering change rather than allowing it to master you."

In life, no two relationships, situations, events, or people are the same. Comparing just makes it worse and attempting to change it to be the way you want will never work.  For example, my relationship with my dad is very different than most people's relationship.  Because of his memory loss, our conversations never go deeper than what my favorite classes are in college and they are constantly being repeated as if I haven't explained it a hundred times.  Recently I called my house to check in and he was the only one home so we spent about ten minutes chatting.  I was happy to hear from him, but it made me sad that he'll never truly know many things about me and my life and we can never have the relationship we could've had before his surgery.  I sometimes watch my friends who have close relationships with their dads and wish that I could go to him for help with my calc homework or have him ask how specific things in my life are.  This way of thinking, though, just makes it worse.  It's impossible to go through life like this.  Instead of focusing on the negatives, I need to constantly remind myself that at least he loves me and cares about my life, something that some people can't say about their dads.  It's hard and I would do anything to change it, but I can't.  All I can do is change my way of thinking and stay as positive as I can.

sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

I just finished Marilyn Monroe's autobiography and absolutely loved it. I gained so much insight into her life and her inner thoughts, which never failed to fascinate me. I admire her view of beauty and how she wasn't concerned with the size of her clothes, but with her inner beauty and her fight to overcome the constant obstacles that were thrown her way. Commence the youtube marathon of her interviews...

My favorite lines:

"I daydreamed chiefly about beauty. I dreamed of myself becoming so beautiful that people would turn to look at me when I passed."

"I didn't mind being thought dumb. I knew I wasn't."

"A strong man doesn't have to be dominate towards a woman. He doesn't match his strength against a woman weak with love for him. He matches it against the world."

"Most men judge your importance in their lives by how much you can hurt them, not by how happy you can make them."

"The real lover is the man who can thrill you by just touching your hand or smiling into your eyes- or by just staring into space."

"I've thought about women. Their jealousy had little do with me. It comes out of their realizing their own shortcomings. Men have told me a lot about women- how lame their love-making often is, how they mistake hysteria for passion and nagging for devotion. Looking at me, women think I'm different than they are in such matters, and this makes them angry."

when was the last time you did something for the first time?

In order to experience the fullest life possible, one must take risks whenever they can. For me personally, I tend to struggle with it because I overthink and analyze everything to the point where I freak myself out. That leads me to realize how much I, and so many others, tend to complicate life way too much. Why wouldn't you go for the things you want even if it may seem scary or risky? At the very least, you'll be proud of yourself that you tried something new and you will learn something about yourself and about life. No matter what, these risks you take will result in something positive, so go for it; nobody's stopping you but yourself.