there's no such thing as perfect.

I can’t write the perfect letter, simply because I am not perfect and that is something I cannot change. I cannot explain everything I feel, because sometimes there are not enough words. But I can tell you this, despite everything that happens in life, I am here for you. My friends, my lovers, and all those in between.
To the strangers I have never met and to the people I have yet to meet. The world may not stop for a broken heart, but I will stop in my steps to help you up when you fall down. When you think you’re alone, when you think life isn’t worth the hassle–there will always be someone beside you, whether you are aware of this or not. Keep it strong, keep moving, wherever you are and whoever you are, you’re you. Don’t change to fit someone else’s ideals. Transform into the beautiful being you are, live to your full potential.
Don’t let your love become hate, learn to forgive with time. Friends will come and go, but you’ll never be alone, even in your darkest moment…there will always be light. Don’t depend on others to fill the void in your heart-happiness is only something you can find for yourself, so follow your heart, reach your dreams. And even if things don’t go as planned, start again and just keep fighting.
Be yourself, love unconditionally. If you want change, take it by the hand, and pull it towards you and don’t be afraid of the consequences. Anything is possible if you really want it. The world isn’t perfect, and neither are the people in it. Don’t look down, look up, it’s okay to be afraid but don’t let it overtake you. You’re human, we’re all human. Pain won’t last forever, and you won’t always be alone.
There will always be someone next to you.
-Aoi x

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just sometimes.

Just sometimes. I have the impulse to stand outside and just stare upwards, stare into space for a while until everything about me becomes a sea of calm.

Just sometimes. I like to walk, for no reason, in any direction. Slow walks heading to somewhere new, somewhere i can experience new sights, sounds and smells. A place where exploring isn’t something old.

Just sometimes. I sit down with a pen and paper and make my imagination come to life, scrawl down all the random thoughts i have and make a vast story of craziness, just because i can.

Just sometimes. I’ll sing in the middle of the night, sing songs of happiness with lyrics of joy.

I don’t do these things because I’m insane.

I do them because life isn’t about complaining about details, it’s about enjoying those details, life is for living.

So live it.

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do you ever?

Do you ever feel like you’re the only one who doesn’t have another? The one who’s the “ugly friend”, “fat friend”, “side-kick”, or just there to fill space? No one really wants to talk to you, you know it. Some people are polite and make small talk, but the attention is always on someone else, usually your friend who brought you along with the best intentions, that you would have some fun, meet new people, get out and live, but what really happens is that you smile through it then go home and cry your heart out because of all the comparing and wishing and just unhappiness.

You’ll never be thought of the pretty one. You’ll never be the one that will find happiness with someone else, because no one else will be there. It’s just done and through. You have to face it, it’s just not going to happen. You’ll never be the pretty one, skinny one, cute one, hot one, anyone.

It’s really difficult, because I think that everyone out there is someone. No matter what. Whether you’re the deep one, funny one, smart one, kick-ass one, tough one, caring one, just someone. I need everyone to know that they’re worth more than they will ever know. That they don’t need to change themselves for someone else or society or anything because who they are makes them beautiful and unique.

I want everyone to know that. I hope that whoever takes the time to reads this will tell someone else that they care about them and are worth so much, because that’s sometimes all it takes. Just a few words can save a life. Even if you say it to yourself to save yourself from the darkest things, it’s true. I believe it, so can you.

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because girl you've got it.

To the woman who is reading this:

If you are young, teenaged, middle-aged, elderly, wrinkled, freckled, light-skinned, dark-skinned, tall, short, curvy, petite…whatever….just know that the unique combination of those types of words is exactly what you are….UNIQUE.

Dear, you are BEAUTIFUL! I am amazed by you even though I have never met you. You have such a great smile, a light in your eyes, and a personality that is like an original work of art- it might try to be replicated, but it can never be the same. Media is WRONG; you are a well-made, strong, intelligent, lovely woman. Don’t forget that!

Remember that looks will fade and that people are not perfect; there is no such thing as “perfect beauty”, so don’t let anyone or anything tell you that you must be this, that, or the other to be considered beautiful and desirable. YOU ARE! Stop being so critical! You are fine the way that God made you, and someday, someone else will believe you are the mostly exquisitely crafted person put on this planet.

People that say mean or negative things are insecure of themselves and are threatened by your beauty….because girl you’ve got it! You are a MASTERPIECE! Tell yourself that each day. When you get ready to leave for school/work/wherever, look at yourself in the mirror and compliment yourself, buy pretty panties (they make a difference), feel sexy because you are sexy, do something for YOU every now and then, and when someone insults you, try your hardest to smile or even say a compliment back: a lovely and kind soul is a beauty that never fades or goes out of style.

So remember….you ARE beautiful…truly.

Sincerely,

Another Woman

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by being you.

This is for those people growing up in countries who don’t have it all.
Those people who are surrounded by material wealth, but have none for themselves.
For anyone who’s ever been abused or bullied. By any one, in any place, at any time.
Those people who’ve had to stand by and watch their family and friends all fall down around them and weren’t able to stop it.
For those girls and women who’ve ever been mistreated in any way.
For those children who were born into a life they didn’t deserve.
For those people who were told they’d never make it.
Those people who were told they’re too dumb, too poor, too skinny, too weak.
Too coloured, too uneducated, too fat, too ugly, too unsociable, too slow.
This is for, you.
You are you, the best thing you can be is you. By being you, you tell the world you’re here to make a claim. You tell the world you will not be moved by all the walls collapsing around you. You tell the world you are strong. You tell the world you will make it.
You lead by example.
You lead from the frontline.
You show people the change you want to see.You show people you will not be felled.
You show people the bad things you’ve seen will not break you.
You teach people to dream.
You teach people to be inspiring.
You show the world what they need to see.
You show the world the potential it has in it.
You show the world you are beautiful, you are intelligent and you are strong.You show the people of the world, they can make it.
And you do all this,
By being You.

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you can do it.

It’s worth it. Every minute of it. Life really is. Think about it. Just take a minute. You may be the most miserable person reading this right now, or happier than ever, but I assure you, it’s worth it regardless of how you feel. I don’t care if you’re Christian, Jewish, Atheist, or whatever you believe. I don’t care what your political view is, I don’t care if you just made a million bucks or only 50 today at the minimum wage you hate more than anything. Those things don’t really matter. Not in the end. Can we really be sure of any end? I don’t believe we can, so the best I can do is be as happy as possible for as long as possible. Cause it’s worth it! Who knows how long we are going to be here, who knows how lucky we are to be able to experience this. Experience as much as possible! Take a random trip and get lost, only to find your way back by an adventure. Tell that girl or guy how you feel, because honestly you fail 100 percent of the chances you don’t take. And no one likes those chances. I have to say i believe in karma. Those who do good will get good, maybe not now, maybe not in 5 years, but before it’s all said and done, those people can say “I am content with dying.” And that makes all the difference. Go to bed every night asking yourself if you’d have any regrets if you had died today. If the answer is yes, make tomorrow better than today. Live it to the fullest! I can’t begin to describe to you how important it is. I don’t care how much money I have or how good I am at something. I don’t worry about what everyone else thinks or what people think of me. We have an incredibly short amount of time on this Earth, and I hope you want to enjoy every minute of it. You always have a choice. A choice to be happy. But we choose to cry sometimes, or to hide, because we are not strong enough. Well I’ll tell you right now you’re damn good enough. You’re good enough for yourself, and that special someone, and your precious dog that loves you no matter what, and your family no matter what problems they may have. Don’t think everything has been all well for me. Things have gotten bad for me let me tell you. I hate to be negative, but I’ve been there. I had/have an alcoholic mother. I never knew my real dad. He died a few years ago. I should have two brothers but they died. My uncle committed suicide. But it’s ok. It hurts, and I’ve accepted that. But it certainly is not worth wasting my precious time on this wonderful place. Making the best of it and being as happy as possible is what gives me this outlook and it can to you, I wouldn’t be sitting here writing all this otherwise. You can do it. All of you. If you’re already there, great! Spread your happiness! If you’re not, you can! I don’t know what else to say! There’s so much to live for you can even begin to fathom! You just have to start somewhere. Start with telling that person how you feel. Start with going on that roller coaster. Start with sitting out at night looking at the stars. Start with anything that motivates you, and makes you happy! Go from there, go do the next thing that sounds good to you, as soon as possible! You will find fulfilling your inner motivations and goals and dreams will make you the happiest. And please, I know it’s hard, but don’t worry about others too much. They don’t know better. They are just following everything everyone else has established as “right”. Like only being successful if you get A’s. Or that promotion. Or hookup with that girl. That’s what they want and like to see other people do. If it’s really you, great, but if it’s not, don’t sweat it.


I really could go on all day. Enjoy the little things, and don’t ever, don’t you ever give up.


Because It’s Worth It,
EF

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super girl.

Dear whoever,

I want to be that girl who can laugh through her tears.

Smile through her pain.

Who, even when she hits rock bottom, can feel like she’s on top of the world.

Who, despite her own troubles, can help those who need it with theirs.

Who will always be there for her friends with a kind smile and a shoulder to cry on.

Who can be at her strongest in her darkest hour

Who can speak her mind, unafraid of what others think

Who loves herself

I want to be fucking Super Girl.

Love,

Me and what will soon be my awesome self.

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