do you ever?

Do you ever feel like you’re the only one who doesn’t have another? The one who’s the “ugly friend”, “fat friend”, “side-kick”, or just there to fill space? No one really wants to talk to you, you know it. Some people are polite and make small talk, but the attention is always on someone else, usually your friend who brought you along with the best intentions, that you would have some fun, meet new people, get out and live, but what really happens is that you smile through it then go home and cry your heart out because of all the comparing and wishing and just unhappiness.

You’ll never be thought of the pretty one. You’ll never be the one that will find happiness with someone else, because no one else will be there. It’s just done and through. You have to face it, it’s just not going to happen. You’ll never be the pretty one, skinny one, cute one, hot one, anyone.

It’s really difficult, because I think that everyone out there is someone. No matter what. Whether you’re the deep one, funny one, smart one, kick-ass one, tough one, caring one, just someone. I need everyone to know that they’re worth more than they will ever know. That they don’t need to change themselves for someone else or society or anything because who they are makes them beautiful and unique.

I want everyone to know that. I hope that whoever takes the time to reads this will tell someone else that they care about them and are worth so much, because that’s sometimes all it takes. Just a few words can save a life. Even if you say it to yourself to save yourself from the darkest things, it’s true. I believe it, so can you.

letters i'll never send.